Mommy Diaries 01

0-15 weeks. I DID NOT KNOW. 

At 16 weeks. Positive on blood test and urinalysis.

At 17 weeks. I saw blood. I was really scared. I was crying. I do not know what will happen. Fortunately, with the help of all the meds (10 tablets per day) I had to take, the spotting stopped. Thank you, Lord.

18-32 weeks. I was not gaining weight but my tummy is getting bigger. I was happy taking baby bump pictures and taking videos of Yanna moving. Besides that, we had to take a lot of laboratory tests to make sure I was healthy and can be able to deliver the baby via NBS. It was also confirmed that my baby is indeed a girl.

At 33 weeks. I was bleeding and the blood was more than my previous spotting.  We thought there was a leak in my amniotic sac. My cervix was dilated at almost 3cm.  After 2 days at the hospital, complete bed rest without bathroom privileges, not allowed to laugh my heart out, all the medication and laboratory tests, Yanna was still inside my tummy. Praise God. 

***I pushed myself to the limit that is why this happened. Yanna’s lungs will only mature at 34 weeks. She was not ready yet. My doctor had to give steroids for her lungs if she will come out. I felt that I was not taking care of her enough. 😦

34-36 weeks. COMPLETE BED REST. There was a time we went to the hospital because I thought the pain I felt was the start of contractions but it was not.

At 36 weeks and 6 days. Check up day. Yanna’s heart rate was slower as compared to normal and was advised by my doctor to start monitoring her movements. I was still at 2cm for two weeks already. The good thing is that, I was almost at 37 weeks and was safe to deliver the baby anytime. We were able to stretched it for 3 more weeks. Praise God again.

At 37 weeks and 3 days. I knew there was already something wrong because she was not moving as much as before. We went to my doctor for a regular checkup on June 28 and I was advised to be admitted already and the rest was history.  Even though I was expecting it, I was scared. For the past few months, I refrained from watching birthing videos because I could not handle it. 

June 29, 2017. The first time I saw her, unlike in movies, there were no happy tears but I fell in love with her right away. I wanted to kiss her and hug her but being in labor got the best of me. (I wanted to share in detail what happened inside the birthing room but I cannot put it into words.) I got to see her smile the first time when the nursers greeted her a happy birthday. After that, I cannot wait to sleep for 2 full hours at the recovery room after all the post birth procedures and eat when I am transferred at my room. 


  • Yanna | nickname
  • June 29, 2017 | birthday
  • Female | gender
  • 2.3 kgs| weight
  • 47 cm | length
  • sleep, drink milk, poop| hobbies
  • being swaddled | like
  • new born screening | dislike
  • mommy and daddy | first love
  • white complexion, thick hair, long eyelashes, eyebrows not visible yet| description
  • Milk and sleep is life. | motto

Welcome Yanna! You are an answered prayer. I love you!


Happy 2nd, Epic!

Quezon City., October 1, 2016 – Epic Events, a family of young, driven, and passionate individuals brought together by their collective love for the art of organizing, managing and/or producing events, celebrated their 2nd year anniversary by having a birthday gig at Mow’s Underground Bar which aimed to support and promote the local independent music scene.

Epic Events invited SUD as their headliner since their first produced gig. Playing for the second time were Rob and the Hitmen and There’s Era. First timer bands to play were Jensen and the Flips, Peryodiko, Run Dorothy and Zipcode.

Zipcode, a band formed in Los Angeles, opened the show and it was their first gig here in the Philippines. Run Dorothy performed next, singing songs from their EP ‘Sanguine’ which they launched last August 1, 2016. Peryodiko caught the hearts of the people when they sang their original song “Tayo Lang Ang May Alam”. There’s ERA, who consider themselves a punk rock/ alternative rock band, sang “Kung Kailan Kailangan Ka” which gave feelings to all feelings. Rob and the Hitmen played some of their English original songs and switched the mood by singing Closer by The Chainsmokers and gave it a different zest the hitmen way. Jensen and the Flips played next. They got the audience flipping at Stay With Me, singing “Alright, alright, alright, alright” with them and mashing-up different songs for the intro of Dangerous. Last but definitely not the least was SUD. Their song “Sila” is a must play now that it is becoming everyone’s favorite. SUD did not disappoint, their songs reminded us to always #bringyourlover. They definitely delivered a finale set for Epic Events’ 2nd anniversary.

One of the heart touching moment during the gig was when Peryodiko’s front man Vin Dancel talked about how laborious it was to run a production company. It became an affirmation for the people behind Epic Events that what they were doing is beneficial to the local independent music scene– putting up an event with bands of diverse genres and sharing the music to old and new audience.

Shout out to Foodpanda for sponsoring discount vouchers for all the attendees. Amplify.Ph, IndieManila, Support Your Local Indie Scene and for being their media partners and Mow’s for housing the event. Epic Events would also like to express their appreciation to all sponsors, media partners, venue partners, suppliers and to all those who has been supporting and believing in them from the very start.

These three-leg anniversary gig — PreGame, Over Coffee and Epic Year 2, produced by Epic Events was their way of sharing also their passion for all types of events and production with the goal of creating lifelong memories and long term friendship.

From Epic Events “See you next year, awesome people!”


When In Macau/Hong Kong

November 25-28, 2016

So this is an overdue blog entry. I know, right? But I felt that there was a ‘need’ to blog this life changing experience. Bear with me. Thanks! 🙂

It was I think 1-2 months before our trip that I learned that my passport was going to expire in 4 months. It was required to have at least 6 months passport validity when travelling abroad but anyway, I took the risk. Luckily enough, I was able to pass by the immigration peacefully.

During this time, I do not know what I want in general. Please refer to this post- For What It’s Worth. It was published on December 1, few days after this trip. It was when I finally accepted that yes, I was in trouble.

It was all smiles during the whole trip. It was my first trip out of the country and I want to make the most out of it. From 22,000 to 25,000 steps everyday, it was fun. We did everything we could. So here you go. Pictures not in order.


Macau: Dinner at Wynn, thank you ate  May!


Macau: This spot reminds me of Batibot in UST. Go USTe!


Hong Kong: When we literally went after our happines– yung ferry 🙂 para di na kami mag-google ng happiness! HAHA!

Hong Kong: After the cable car ride. Hunger games!!!!

Macau: Yoga night just because.

Macau: Ruins of St. Paul’s at night

Macau: Because we love the air outside the mall/casino, can’t remember where.

Macau: Thank you iPad timer for this wonderful stolen shot. hihi

At Macau Tower, we were there 8:45pm 🙂 Kami lang tao, solong solo.

Macau: At ate May’s flat; after a whole day of walking and eating, gin and tonic night. 

Hong Kong: At Mana! Fast Slow Food, for vegetarians. I thought I would not enjoy the food but I did. 

Hong Kong: At The Big Buddha. Trying my best to do a blogger shot!?!

Hong Kong: My happiness. hahaha!

At Macau Tower 🌃

Macau street

Macau street at night. Cleaann!

Macau: from Blissful Carrot, favorite.

So that’s the tourist part of the trip. Moving on….

This is when I got the chance to laugh and ‘hugot’ my heart out. I felt free. I felt I can do anything and say anything to them without the fear of being judged.  I literally forgot everything in the Philippines. HAHAHAHA! BUT, the good thing was, I never really told them what was happening to me. They challenged me to be better, to not settle for anything that is not for me and to go after what would make me happy. It was a relief to know that I am not the only one and the good news was, they got over it and so am I.

Few months after, it was not as easy as it seems. I started to question my worth, my values, my principles and everything in between. It was the hardest months. But I was reminded to be gentle with myself. I believed that I was growing, not just in the way I expected it. I gave myself a chance, I took risks and I choose to be happy.

At the end of each day, all I have is who I am. I made it this far and I am not going to stop to be better, everyday.

Thank you, Lord 🙂