Narinig ko yung line na yan kanina sa Feast. We were tackling about the story of Joseph the Dreamer and how he forgave his brothers.
Kapag tayo nasaktan, isa sa mga pinakamahirap maramdam ay yung pagmamahal ng Diyos. Kasi mas nakikita natin yung sakit, yung hirap at tska yung mga mali. Hindi natin naiintindihan sa umpisa kung bakit natin pinagdadaanan yon.
Last 2016, I was badly hurt by the person I never thought who will. He knew what I went through. He knew everything about me, my fears, my past, my insecurities and all my secrets BUT unfortunately, hindi yun assurance na hindi ka niya sasaktan. Kaya mas nagiging masakit kapag nagawa nila. And because of the pain that I felt, at that time, I don’t want to be friends with him. That is how pain can ruin beautiful relationships. But still I chose to forgive. Mahirap pero iisipin mo nalang yung mga mabubuting nagawa sayo nung tao na yon. Sabi nga din kanina, FORGIVENESS DOES NOT NECESSARILY FRIENDSHIP which is true. We forgive because it frees us from the burden of being bitter and it gives us inner peace.
Nung mga panahon na yun, hindi ko maintindihan bakit nangyari sakin yon. I realized just tonight that GOD WANTED ME TO JOURNEY. And this is one of my long journeys with the Lord. This journey made me appreciate the beauty of friendship and how forgiveness can heal broken relationships. The person I was talking about was also hurt when I said that I do not want to be friends with him. But he did forgive me for what I said and still wanted to be friends with me.
My takeaway: EVERY JOURNEY THAT I WILL GO THROUGH IS ALL PART OF GOD’S PLAN. Whatever it may be, whenever or wherever it will be, it will always be part of His perfect plan for me. He would always want me better. He made me realize that THERE IS JOY IN FORGIVENESS and when we choose forgive, we gain more.