I know that I’ve been messed up
You never let me give up
Know that we don’t look like much
But no one fucks it up like us
This was suppose to be a Song of the Week post pero wala ee. HAHAHAHA! Gusto ko umiyak nung first time ko to narinig. Kanina while I was on my way to work, napakinggan ko ulit so, I felt a little emotional (normal me, hehe) and dahil don its friendship appreciation day.
Cheers to all my friends who have been there for me through all the seasons of my life. Bukod sa pamilya ko eh kayo lang naman ang priority ko. All of you keep me sane and insane at the same time. Kayo yung reminder sakin ng Diyos na love na love niya ko at kaya ko ding magmahal. Di ko ma put into words how grateful I am for the friendship. You made simple moments memorable kasi kayo kasama ko. More of our tawanan, hugutan,iyakan, chikahan, bastusan, inuman at marami pang iba. Lagi kayong nasa dasal ko.
Having a guy best friend is like having a friend and a brother all at the same time. He can decipher a guy’s behavior, he will be there for you (within 15 minutes) when you needed rescuing, he will let you cry your heart out at the same time never wanting to see you cry, and will always prepare you for the worst.
Things I learned from having you as my best friend:
- Converse. Translating my thoughts into feelings even if it takes a lifetime. When is the right time to say stuff– saying sorry, your opinion, jokes, and how grateful you are.
- Never forget the good things. Never let a single mistake erase all the good things a person did for you. NEVER.
- Acceptance. Acceptance does not mean approval. Accept the good, accept the bad. PERIOD. No judging.
The time has come to say goodbye, or see you soon. I do not really know. We knew this would happen. This needed to happen. This was the bravest decision (for our friendship) you/me have ever made. Thank you for doing this.
Isn’t it funny how a habit becomes a habit? How a stranger becomes your best friend? How friends become your family? How friendship grows into a romantic relationship? How the white-gold dress can be seen as black-blue dress and vice versa (just kidding)? How indifference turns into love? How people take risks for their future? How we are forgiven and loved even if we are not asking for it? and how breakdowns lead to breakthrough?
Lord, increase my capacity to love so I may understand that I do not need answers to these questions. Through your amazing grace and unconditional love, let me find You in everything that I do.
This blog was inspired by Maroon 5 and Gwen Stefani’s song My Heart is Open **obviously**.
Disclaimer: It’s not really about the song **konti lang:**, but every time I hear it, it tells me “BLOG! BLOG! BLOG! OPEN YOUR HEART”. So here we go…..
One more “No” and I’ll believe you
I’ll walk away and I will leave you be
And now’s the last time you’ll say “No”, say “No” to me
It has been a while. I cannot think of any introduction. HAHAHA! Straight to the body….
Thank you to ROMAN EMPIRE for being my stronghold. I LOVE YOU GUYSSS.
The #BestGroupEver and now my household. Thank you for making me realize that being broken is not an excuse not to love.
From being a kuya to BFF, thank you for preparing me for the worst. **wag na tayo magiiyakan ulit, baka akalain ng mga tao, tayo ang nagbreak, hahaha**
PFF, my perfect friends. Thank you for being my alter egos. Labyu both!
Clingy, Thank you for understanding everything.
Kambal, thank you for always listening and for not judging.
Cliquish! OMGGG. Thank you!
My SFC families…. Thank you for always praying for me.
HS friendsssss! I looove you soo much! Alam niyo naman yun, kahit ano pang mangyare.
This is not the original content of this blog entry **I was about to share my fears in falling in love again, guys that I have encountered after the breakup, how I coped up with the break up,etc.**, I guess that’s how the Lord works in our lives. It is always the Lord’s purpose that will prevail (Proverbs 19:21). My heart is full of love, hope and gratitude. Yes, God has taken a part of me but He filled it with graces that I cannot possibly refuse.
How do you cross something off your bucket list when it is not on your list?
I love spontaneous, unplanned and go with the flow kind of night.
This was not the first time we #yolo-ed on a Monday night. I remembered we went to Tagaytay. Left Manila at 6pm, reached Tagaytay at around 8pm. We stopped at MCDO drive thru in SLEX for dinner and just had coffee at Starbucks, arrived home before 12 midnight. It was fun. No gadgets, no internet, just a real conversation. NO PLANS.
And it happened again… we had dinner at one of my favorite place, we do not know where to go after, so we just stayed in the car, literally stayed in the car and just talk. Talk everything under the stars — family, principles, love life, work, future, past, etc. So when we’re on our way home, something unfortunate happened. His car overheated. It’s funny because this is the 3rd time I experienced a car overheated (I do not want to believe that I am a jinx). I did not panic because we were able to stop at a gas station and I think that I am a professional in handling those kind of situations. HAHA!
We decided to leave the car and just grab a taxi or whatever to go home. Lucky enough, there is none. We walked. We walked at C3, a road that is full of trucks, garbage and a not so safe place. But we managed, I enjoyed the almost 2km walk. When I got home, I was so tired but happy. A night that I will never forget.
This is nice when you are starting a new friendship. You cannot build friendship on social media or texting. Spend time and YOLO.
Kaladkarin – anytime, anywhere, kahit saan pwede dalin, madaling ayain, gorabels palagi.
When used in a sentence: Si Levin ay isang perfect example ng kaladkarin.
It all started with a biglaang dinner. Nasa CLP ako, Jerome at si Maan. Biglaang nagkaayaan ng dinner. Ang ending——-
Midnight snack sa North Park. Galing kami burol. May pamahiin tayo na kapag galing burol, hindi dapat dumederecho sa bahay. Kaya yan. HAHAHAHAHA. Second time lang namin nagmeet niyan ni Trish. Abangan ang mga susunod na kabanata 🙂
Totoong totoo ang kasabihan na “Kapag biglaan, natutuloy”. Dito kami nagkaisa. Sinundo nila ko sa office. Dito ko narealize na sobrang mahal ko na yang Celerio na yan. Ayoko na magkwento. Galing kaming Ortigas, target pumunta ng Timog, tumambay sa Megamall. ANYARE?!! Nasaan kami???
Kapag Biglaan, MAS Natutuloy. Hello Silang! Hi Tagaytay! Last day ng Metrocon nila. Kami naman, wala masyadong ginagawa, saktong holiday kinabukasan, isa lang ang ibig sabihin —- YOLO 🙂
Sulit na sulit ang weekend, videoke to the max, napilitang maglaro ng In Betweens na gustong gusto ni Gel. Hinding hindi mawawala syempre ang Pusoy Dos at ang favorite kong Bluff “Boom, Brother!”. Alam na alam kung sino ang magaling magsinungaling. HONESTOO!!!!! Tambay sa pinakamalaking Starbucks sa Tagaytay, haha! Totoong tawa yan. hahahaha! Pagbalik ng Silang, akala ko tulugan na kasi pagod na yung mga galing Metrocon, aba hindi pa pala! Laro pa ng heart attack na masakit talaga sa puso. Tska yung card game na hindi ko alam ang tawag basta kelangan 3 language ng number yung sasabihin mo— UNO, ISA, ALAS? hahahaha! Hindi kasi alas, dba GEL? Si Gel nga ba? hahahahaha! Kahit tinulugan kami ni Cholo T____T. Kinabukasan, hindi pa kami napagod, yung iba bumalik na ng Manila, yung iba, nag-Nuvali pa. Sige. Walang kapaguran.
Eto medyo planado namin ni Trish, dahil nga kami yung hindi talaga masyado close pa, magddate kami. Pero merong nagpupumilit na sumama. HAHAHAHA. Mabait naman kami ni Trish, kaya sabi namin, hanggang dinner lang siya.
After dinner, punta kami ng Coffee Bean, usap usap tapos usap usap ulit tapos usap usap tapos usap usap. Ang dami naming napagkwentuhan. I loooove my MD! hihihi.
Same night, nalaman ko din na kaladkarin siyang tunay like me. Nagtext si Jake, nag-ayang kumaen, extended ang date namin. 9 hours lang naman kaming magkasama. Trinoma-TechnoHub-Timog. Thank you Lord.
That weekend, kahit hindi kami nagkita kita, lagi naman kaming magkakatext, magkakatweet,imessage, magkaBBM o kaya PM pa sa Facebook. Tandang-tanda ko, nung Nov. 1, lagi kong hawak yung phone ko, ang tanging pahinga lang ay yung tulog ko ng hapon. Sinong clingy? Taas kamay!
Monday. Date muna nila Trish and Kaye. Nanonood sila She’s the One. Relate na relateba girls? hahaha! Dahil sa clingy nga ako, sakto na nag-aya si Jake sa Shrine at Metrowalk, kaya nakasunod ako sa kanila sa Gateway after ng movie date nila. Plus Maan.
Th next day, biglaan lang din. Nagbreakfast naman kami ni Jerome nung morning, kasama ko naman si Gel and Cholo nung lunch. Asan kaya si Kaye? Ay, nasa Laguna. Loser!
Hindi pa nagtatapos jan, halos lahat sila nasa Center, kaya ako naman nakipagkita sa Gateway. Pero ang tagal matapos ng mga meeting nila. Tinawagan ko si Kaye, hahahaha! iinggitin ko lang. Bitter siya. Pagdating ng Center, pinuntahan ko si Gel, hindi ko nakita si Maan and Gerald pero na-hug ko si Trish. Sabay sabay nalang kami umuwe nila Gel and Jerome.
Susunod na araw, nagkita lang kami ni Kaye, as in kita lang ng mga 5 minutes tapos nag-Mass na ko. hahaha!
Sumunod na araw, nagkita naman kami ni Kaye and Trish. Si Trish umalis agad, nag-Mass kami ni Kaye, tagal kasi ng date niya. HAHAHAHA.
Sumunod na araw, nagkita ulit kami ni Kaye. Mass tapos kumaen lang. Nagbonding lang kaming mag-ina.
In short, itong week na to, Monday to Friday, meron akong nakita sa kanila. Sinong clingy ulit?
The next week, medyo kalmado kami. Merong mga nagkikita pero hindi grabe. Lagi lang nakaBBM. Sorry sa mga walang BBM, buti nalang si Maan meron na. hahahaha! Sabi ko pa, hindi ako masyadong makakapagkita sa kanila kasi medyo busy ako sa pagaayos ng kasal ko. Char! Eto na nga…….
Di ko alam kung pano nangyare pero napunta kami ni Kaye sa Timog, sa Coffee Barn with Gel and Cholo. hahahaha! Friend niya daw kasi yung may-ari. Ang ganda nung cafe. Special treatment kami syempre. Ang pinaka memorable syempre “Bakit walang label?” :))))))))))
Sumunod na araw, kami ulit ni Kaye. Jusko po. Like mother, like daughter. HAHAHAHAHA! Kinita namin si Trish and Jerome sa Gateway. Kumaen lang. Makapagpicture lang.
Di pa diyan nagtatapos ang gabi namin, kinita din namin si Gel at Cholo sa Starbucks, West Ave. Ansabe? Laro laro din ng pusoy dos kahit masikip. Dun ko din nalaman na mahilig pala magbasa si Cholo at ang sukatan ng pagiging magkaibigan ay kung alam mo kung anong favorite color nila. hahaha!
Im so happy na natatandaan ko lahat ng biglaang lakad namin. hahaha! Eto pa, dahil miss ko sila, dumaan ako ulit ng Gateway the next day ata para lang makasabay umuwe kela Kaye and Gerald.
Nag-enjoy din ako sa chikahan namin ni Gerald kahit sandali. “Sinong mahal mo?” hahahaha!
Bilang kaladkarin talaga ako, humindi na ko kay Trish nung nag-aya siya na tumambay after ng practice nila, pero walang nangyare. hahaha! Tinext ako ni Jake, nagaaya sa practice nila, naisip ko, issurprise ko si Trish, alam niya na kung bakit. Ang ending, tumambay ako with her band 🙂 Happy birthday sa kanila!
Kahit na halos araw araw kaming nagkikita, ewan ko ba kung bakit excited na excited padin ako kapag magkikita kita kami kahit sandaling sandali lang. Sila yung mga blessings sakin ng Panginoon. Marami akong natututunan sa kanila. Mooooooore to cooooooome!