: to be afraid of (something or someone)
: to expect or worry about (something bad or unpleasant)
: to be afraid and worried
I am an ultimate worrier. If I can worry all the possible things in the world, I will. Not because of any reason, but I think it is in my nature, it’s part of my personality.
Sharing my bag of worries and my sack of tranquilizers.
I fear making decisions that can or will change my life. Because I do not want anybody to tell me that I have made the wrong decision.
I fear that people will not understand, will not accept me, and judge my principles, my personality, my lifestyle and everything that makes me. So what do I do? My defense mechanism –I will be the first one to ignore (what I really meant is ‘reject’, I just like to sound more beautiful) them . Wait for them to talk to me first. Never will I initiate.
I fear that I will not meet the expectations of others. It is never and never will be my intention to please them but failures shear my pride and ego.
I fear doing things out of my comfort zone. Those “what ifs” and “what might have been “. **SIGH** It is hard for me to move on.
2. Being not forgiven
I fear not being forgiven because it is hard for me to say sorry and when I do, I really meant it.
I fear the not-assured-and-not-secured-feeling situations. I fear things and situations that are not according to MY plans. I am afraid of disappointing myself and other people. At the same time, I fear people disappointing me. I equally love the past and the present, I love future the least.
Need I say more? My God is bigger than my fears. I always forget and God always reminds me because that is how much He loves me.
Here’s a song called FEARLESS. This is how I should be. Thank you In House Studios PH! 🙂
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